Had I Known
Had I known I would leave myself….I would’ve packed lighter.
Growing up we know there will come a time when we have to leave things behind. Our friends, our parents, a job perhaps…..maybe even a relationship. Never in my wildest dreams, did I ever imagine that I’d be leaving….me.
I’m not quite sure when it happened, but one day I looked in the mirror and I was…..Gone!
How did this happen?
Where did I go?
Was there one significant event responsible? Perhaps…but, my sense is that it was just a culmination of daily mindless decisions that caused my departure.
As if my soulful self slipped out the back. Like someone opened the cage door and my spirit flew out.
It was so subtle… that even I hadn’t noticed it.
I unknowingly slipped into the roles of other peoples’ ideals.
Never feeling the presence of my body…..never fully present in my mind.
Never noticing the weight of all the doing!
I had become skilled in the art… of fragmentation.
I had given myself away to the beliefs of others and allowed myself to fall out of Wholeness.
In retrospect perhaps it was more of a leap than a fall. Had I become like so many others who are allured by the mindlessness of more?
Doing more, being more and becoming more of what other people expected?
Is it possible that our journey on the road of more leads us away from ourselves? How easily do our journeys becomes weighed down by the “should do’s” and the “to do’s” of our culture?
Our joy does not lie in the “doing more and being more”… but in the knowing that we are enough!
Everything we need to live a life of wellness and happiness is within us.